I have felt

August 2, 2009 lifelesson101

Some people say that I have only dipped a timid foot
into the shallows of life’s swift, endless current,
and therefore no nothing of how to swim its deeps.
They can’t tell by the sight of me
That I have already faced my worst fear,
so close to drowning in those relentless waters.
I have felt.
I have felt the hot saltiness of tears
on their winding path down my cheeks.
The fizzing, bubbling energy that is joy
charging every particle in my body.
I have felt despondency when unable to clear obstinate hurdles,
and the weary aching of bones and body that accompanies hard-earned triumph.
I have felt the pounding of my heart against my ribs
when faced with the putrid, chilling breath of fear.
The tickling of butterflies when someone I admire is seen.
I have felt the hollow numbness echoing inside
with the loss of a loved one.
The fatigue of carrying guilts that have built up like heavy bricks
weighing me down.
All these things and more I have felt, tumbling helplessly along in the relentless rapids of life.
And, although I cannot yet swim in the pulling currents,
I have learned to wade in the calms, and to keep afloat at least…
All because I have felt.

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